today has been one of those days.. i looked at FOUR apartments today and i'm slowly coming to the conclusion that connecticut is where i belong. of the four, i loved one (which of course the landlord wants to rent out in april, yeah next week) liked one (turns out that one isn't even on the market anymore but he's building three other duplexes so hopefully i'll like one of those) hated one (no comment) and the final one i was on the fence about. all of this work when i could leave temple, save thousands of dollars and live back at home for free. in any case, hopefully this time next month i'll know where i'll be next year.
aside from that...
again i'm doing that whole re-assessing my life and friendships thing again and i'm finding myself wanting more and more to cut things out, 'friends' being the number one. it perplexes me how i have been friends with people back in connecticut basically my whole life, but i came to temple and i find myself disliking more and more people. of the many i was close with at one point, i really only talk to one, jhannell my ride or die. i'm not complaining, but at the same time i wonder if it's really them or if it's just me. it has to been them. lol.
i'm kinda glad that both day 26's and danity kane's albums were good. i was afraid they wouldn't be. in any case, day 26 is below. until next time! outski♥
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Friday, March 21, 2008
i'm rojo
What's Your True Color?
My Result: Red
yeah, it's like that.
"Inevitably, the further you run from your sins, the more exhausted you are when they catch up to you, and they do."
-- Dalton Russell, Inside Man
-- Dalton Russell, Inside Man
Thursday, March 20, 2008
words to live by
DON'T QUIT
-- Author Unknown
When things go wrong, as they sometimes will
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns
As every one of us sometimes learns
And many a fellow turns about
When he might have won, had he stuck it out.
Don't give up though the pace seems slow
You may succeed with another blow.
Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faint and faltering man;
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor's cup;
And he learned too late when the night came down
How close he was to the golden crown.
Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt
And you never can tell how close you are
It may be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
It's when things seem worst that you mustn't quit.
-- Author Unknown
When things go wrong, as they sometimes will
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns
As every one of us sometimes learns
And many a fellow turns about
When he might have won, had he stuck it out.
Don't give up though the pace seems slow
You may succeed with another blow.
Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faint and faltering man;
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor's cup;
And he learned too late when the night came down
How close he was to the golden crown.
Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt
And you never can tell how close you are
It may be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
It's when things seem worst that you mustn't quit.
wow. this could not have come at a better time. in any case, i'm hating life right now lol.. i have the worst OD crams i've ever had and i was trying to take a nap buttttt thanks to bum ass philly, they're doing some work on 15th st DIRECTLY under my window. fuck this place.
i have PILES of homework to do and of course i have to go to work. looks like it's gna be a long tech center night. yeesh. at least the sun is shining! it was oc cold this morning and of course all i had on was a hoodie. lol.. new danity kane isn't that bad! 85% of me thought it was gna be horrible but i can actually listen to the whole cd without skipping. not worth buying, but definitely worth downloading. lol. im gna try that nap thing again.
until next time, outski ♥
i have PILES of homework to do and of course i have to go to work. looks like it's gna be a long tech center night. yeesh. at least the sun is shining! it was oc cold this morning and of course all i had on was a hoodie. lol.. new danity kane isn't that bad! 85% of me thought it was gna be horrible but i can actually listen to the whole cd without skipping. not worth buying, but definitely worth downloading. lol. im gna try that nap thing again.
until next time, outski ♥
Monday, March 17, 2008
new deep
"Numb is the new deep/Done with the old me/And talk is the same cheap it's been.."
-- John Mayer, New Deep
thank you john fricken mayer. it's been a while. i've decided to make some changes with my life.. drastic ones, yes, but also necessary ones. i'm only afraid that they will not change what i want them to change. for instance, i changed my phone number for several different reason, one of which was to get away from a few people.. the main person i was 'running' from, however, got it within a couple hours of my changing it.. seems like it'll never be over between us lol.. that's for another post.
last week i was home for spring break and i felt on top of the world. i've never been so happy to be back in ct and right now i'm feeling a huge ache in my heart to be back there. usually, my mother and i do nothing but fight but this past week, we became friends. it's almost like she trusts me 1000x more now (she let me take her car 2 days in a row!).. i just wish i could go back. home is such a safe haven for me, especially with all that's been happening here. whatev lol what can you do? i'm ready for this semester to be done. i'm in the process of looking for a new job, (commerce drains me so much) and looking at schools to transfer to, although that may not happen.
in other news, the 2008 election. sheesh! though after hearing his life story, and reading tidbits of his book i'm for obama, i don't think it really matters whether we nominate the white woman or the black man because neither or them provide much of a new direction and both have a MASSIVE burden awaiting them, and neither will be able to do much more than 'stop the bleeding.' that is, obviously, a relief but it's not really progress, which is what we ultimately need. even more than that, i think that what it means to politically or even intellectually to be a 'woman' or 'black' is something that we as a people should be WAY over. look at phyllis schlafly, clarence thomas or even fricken condoleezza rice (even if she's a dick lol).
all in all, i think obama is the better candidate, period. that being said, however, i think that both he and hilary are qualified, and finally having a democrat in office will be nothing short of a good thing. hopefully, however, if obama wins the primary, the analysts are not right in their assertion that democrats will sway at the last minute and vote for the white man, which will be mccain. yikes.
in any case, i'm outski. until next time!
-- John Mayer, New Deep
thank you john fricken mayer. it's been a while. i've decided to make some changes with my life.. drastic ones, yes, but also necessary ones. i'm only afraid that they will not change what i want them to change. for instance, i changed my phone number for several different reason, one of which was to get away from a few people.. the main person i was 'running' from, however, got it within a couple hours of my changing it.. seems like it'll never be over between us lol.. that's for another post.
last week i was home for spring break and i felt on top of the world. i've never been so happy to be back in ct and right now i'm feeling a huge ache in my heart to be back there. usually, my mother and i do nothing but fight but this past week, we became friends. it's almost like she trusts me 1000x more now (she let me take her car 2 days in a row!).. i just wish i could go back. home is such a safe haven for me, especially with all that's been happening here. whatev lol what can you do? i'm ready for this semester to be done. i'm in the process of looking for a new job, (commerce drains me so much) and looking at schools to transfer to, although that may not happen.
in other news, the 2008 election. sheesh! though after hearing his life story, and reading tidbits of his book i'm for obama, i don't think it really matters whether we nominate the white woman or the black man because neither or them provide much of a new direction and both have a MASSIVE burden awaiting them, and neither will be able to do much more than 'stop the bleeding.' that is, obviously, a relief but it's not really progress, which is what we ultimately need. even more than that, i think that what it means to politically or even intellectually to be a 'woman' or 'black' is something that we as a people should be WAY over. look at phyllis schlafly, clarence thomas or even fricken condoleezza rice (even if she's a dick lol).
all in all, i think obama is the better candidate, period. that being said, however, i think that both he and hilary are qualified, and finally having a democrat in office will be nothing short of a good thing. hopefully, however, if obama wins the primary, the analysts are not right in their assertion that democrats will sway at the last minute and vote for the white man, which will be mccain. yikes.
in any case, i'm outski. until next time!
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