new deep

"Numb is the new deep/Done with the old me/And talk is the same cheap it's been.."
-- John Mayer, New Deep

thank you john fricken mayer. it's been a while. i've decided to make some changes with my life.. drastic ones, yes, but also necessary ones. i'm only afraid that they will not change what i want them to change. for instance, i changed my phone number for several different reason, one of which was to get away from a few people.. the main person i was 'running' from, however, got it within a couple hours of my changing it.. seems like it'll never be over between us lol.. that's for another post.
last week i was home for spring break and i felt on top of the world. i've never been so happy to be back in ct and right now i'm feeling a huge ache in my heart to be back there. usually, my mother and i do nothing but fight but this past week, we became friends. it's almost like she trusts me 1000x more now (she let me take her car 2 days in a row!).. i just wish i could go back. home is such a safe haven for me, especially with all that's been happening here. whatev lol what can you do? i'm ready for this semester to be done. i'm in the process of looking for a new job, (commerce drains me so much) and looking at schools to transfer to, although that may not happen.
in other news, the 2008 election. sheesh! though after hearing his life story, and reading tidbits of his book i'm for obama, i don't think it really matters whether we nominate the white woman or the black man because neither or them provide much of a new direction and both have a MASSIVE burden awaiting them, and neither will be able to do much more than 'stop the bleeding.' that is, obviously, a relief but it's not really progress, which is what we ultimately need. even more than that, i think that what it means to politically or even intellectually to be a 'woman' or 'black' is something that we as a people should be WAY over. look at phyllis schlafly, clarence thomas or even fricken condoleezza rice (even if she's a dick lol).
all in all, i think obama is the better candidate, period. that being said, however, i think that both he and hilary are qualified, and finally having a democrat in office will be nothing short of a good thing. hopefully, however, if obama wins the primary, the analysts are not right in their assertion that democrats will sway at the last minute and vote for the white man, which will be mccain. yikes.
in any case, i'm outski. until next time!